BROKEN RECORD
You want me to be untainted,
to love you unconditionally as I slowly lose myself in your tangled webs
You want me to bow my head at the mention of your name
and submit to all of your desires and requests of my body
You want me to give you all of me,
the depths of my poetry and the sensuality of my womanhood.
I give... You take
You want me to stay,
and put up with your insults and controlling ways
You want me to be a friend and a lover,
to fix the scars left by the absence of your mother.
You want me to love you, the way you want to be loved
to take all of you with a side of who you are and a sip of who you want to be.
You want me to swallow you in every sense of the word.
I give... You take
You want me to be perfect,
whatever perfect is for you at the time you decided you wanted perfect.
You want me to understand you, to observe you and dive into your toxic wave and be stung by your burning flaws.
and if I don't...
In some way, I will have fallen short.
I give... You take
You want me to compress my emotions
and not express how I truly feel every time you fill me with intentions that don't exist in me.
Every time your words cut through my skin,
every time you walk out of my life with no regard
Every time...You want me to keep it together
and not bring up the past
and not hold you to any kind of standard so that there is enough room for all of your imperfections.
You want me to conceal my fears
even when you're projecting your insecurities on to me
and you want me to keep smiling even when you drag me into the darkness of your heart
You want me to keep running towards you even when you've shown me just how broken and ugly you are.
I give... You take
You want me to surrender my sex
to give you the very essence of me
to open gates of intimacy with you while you remain a man that will never commit to the idea of a relationship
You want me to accept your sadist ways and withstand all of the anger you feel towards your past yet love you, the way that you want to be loved
You ask everything of me
short of giving you my soul
but in some dark perverted way... deep inside, I know you would have that of me too
You want all of this from me in exchange for the leftover pieces of your defiled and corrupt version of love
I give.. and you take...
LianiRey ©
12/11/2017 (started 7/01/2016)